i dreamt of you again! this is the second time i dreamt of you. the feeling of you beside me in my dream was nice. you care alot for me in the dream. and when i woke up. i still have the feeling that you're beside me. very sweet!

yes, every morning i will have an urge to sms, talk or find you. but i choose to sms as i din't expect you to reply me. it's make me feel that atleast you're reading it. i'm happy already.

this few days, i went thinking. i knew i took granted from you. i like to nag nag whenever i see things which i dont like and never care about your feeling. most of the time, it's my fault. i din't blame you. 'cause i make you suffer. sorry! if we can get back together again. i will know what to do. i wont force myself not to love you. and i dont wish you to do that too. it's hurts! i will be waiting for you. and i dont wanna have a distance btw us. i wanna be the person that you will think of when you're having trouble etc.. you're going on a holiday soon. i can't see, contact you. but it's ok! this is the time i will learn independent. wanna let you know i'm waiting for you.

when will my eyes be swollen? when will my love touched your heart? when will i have that chance to hold you in my arms again? when will we go out together again? when will you accept me again? when will all this happen?
if only i can stop thinking those things. if only i lost my memory. if only i can never wake up in my sleep. if only i have a high high high fever that erase my memories.



sentences that you wrote before.

"That day, at her house she cried when we hugged. It just hurts im feeling quite guilty becoz its me who made her cry. So ke lian, *hugs* harder. But dear, this 7 days i'll take care of myself i'll be ok i promised u i'll be back at changi airport to see u to hug u to kiss u :)"

"even now im missing u like mad, i wanna hug u kiss u, hold ur hands, look at u till im 80 yrs old. Dear~ Ashiteru."
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